Surprise Yourself
- Sloane Bâby
- Dec 21, 2015
- 2 min read
With the new year approaching, I’m all for fresh starts and resetting goals. I think there’s never a bad time to start something new, at any time of the year. But, there’s something refreshing about leaving an entire year and its feelings, experiences, and achievements as past memories, to propel you into newer, higher capacities of life.
“New Year, New Me,” isn’t exactly what I’m talking about. We are always ourselves, if only revealing layers we didn’t know we had. This is the “newness” that excites me.
Every year of my 27 on Earth, I have surprised myself. With my humanness, my strength, with failure and success, in challenging myself to be more of this and less of that. It’s the trial-and-error of living. I don’t intend on perfecting life this year, either.
My goals this year? To be kinder, always more understanding. To work harder at finding my niche in the work world. Be a better partner, daughter, sister and puppy mom. Be more selfish in some areas, and less in others. To give myself the grace to be imperfect, the work in progress which I am. To remember that I shouldn’t have to prove my life to anyone but myself.
It’s general, but I don’t have cut-and-dry goals, because of the surprise I’ve given myself each year. And I’m good with that. There are many goals I can’t explain until I get there. Or, don’t know until I say, “Ah! That’s the lesson I’ve gained.”
I’ve learned I can’t be rigid; it’s not good for me. It's unhealthy to be unrealistic. I have to sit back, remind myself of the person I want to become, and take steps in becoming her.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about that work-world goal. Tossng it around in my head. And I’ve been thinking of nutty ideas- realistic or not, I’m not sure. But passion fuels me, and I can’t deny that energy.
My guy and I often sit around and I’ll start talking about something, with fierce vigor. Subdued ideas, lesser than the ones I have planned out in my head.
“What did you say?” he will often say.
Nothing, I was just dreaming. And I am. I don’t think I’ll stop. I can’t wait to see what I didn’t know I could do.
So, here’s to new layers of each of us. To speaking to yourself with patience and love. To discover, learn and become more ourselves this year in 2016.
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